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Written on: Thursday, January 29, 2009
firstly, this happened purely by accident. i was quite amused.Time: 11:45 PM i am not a sad self-abusing empty shell disaster-waiting-to-happen hopeless trashbag. and i finally found out why i was so lethargic: i took the wrong medication! instead of Allertyn, the non-drowsy thingy, i took some chloropheniramine very drowsy thing. thanks Mak, i would have continued taking the very drowsy thing cos reading the packaging is just too tedious. and my mom also said that i could get high if i overdose. HMMM... fatfatfat
Written on: Tuesday, January 27, 2009
my very efficient mom just baked us Time: 2:57 AM WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO, EH? you think you can just walk past and not notice? eh? eh? or what, just taste one and wait for tomorrow? I'M JUST A MAN, DAMMIT. so now my bros and i will sit down and feed our faces till our stomachs grow then i'll just run some other day hahah this is so hahah good my plan will surely hahah work i know its really smart hahaha so now i hahaha can enjoy heh and heh not feel guilty or whatever heh ok i can't heh take it anymore bye i'm off to get fat. no wait. get happy. ouh and i just fixed the photos in that post below. you gotta see the ones towards the end! serious beb gua tak bohong! its a pack of ten
Written on: Sunday, January 25, 2009
Time: 1:07 AM CORRECTION: it didn't work, so i have to tediously upload every damn photo now. I HATE YOU, MAXIMUM UPLOAD CAPACITY! picasa people, please program it petter. hahah you just gotta love the Ps. i thought picasa would do the trick, but noooooooo. so i manipulated the damn program to make it work the way i wanted it to; that's just a fancy way of saying: i used an underhand method to get it done, though the program helped a wee bit. on the same day, adjacent page, two people are wearing the frickin same TIE! tie numbuh two! ok they're not thaat superishly similar, but still... read it. see ah all these supplement things... SUPPLEMENTS. eh taufiq your locker in my class heh heh HAH heh cos the idiot school wants us to get rid of them i uh... no i really don't know what to say... WHY! aHA! the monumental EXCO RECEIPT. signed by everyone, though we didn't have to. baik ah. the whoale thing
Written on: Wednesday, January 21, 2009
if you really wanna be part of something great for once in your life, then join us for dikir. its the best thing that ever happened to this world, and we'll all emerged changed people; enlightened and ready to take on the cosmos.Time: 11:43 PM in short, its really fun. i think i have to stop being so emotionally attached to my belongings (even my pencils) so i won't WAHKAO! the next time i lose something. first step to achieving this: stop drawing all over everything. is it even remotely possible that i wrote all this just to test my keyboard? hmm. thoughts to keep the insomniacs busy. quite. a bit. not really. nope. zilch. ok that's enough. thank God i found my pencil box! THE pencil box!
Written on: Tuesday, January 20, 2009
i never really made lots of friends, always preferring to keep to myself. but the Wreck, as he was commonly known, was different. he was eccentric and crazily ambitious, and always made people want to be involved in whatever it is he was doing. 'doing' started off with the occasional game of golf, then the opera, dinner with his shady group of associates, and in the end helping him with his very much talked about experiments.Time: 11:35 PM these experiments are what led to what has been coined by many as a 'sad ending that will never really see an end'. and in honour of my great friend, i will describe to you the incidents that culminated in the 'end'. the Dr always had a thing for out-of-this-world science projects, but i was stunned when he sent me a telegraph one day, describing to me his plans for building a time machine. i laughed at first, but soon realized how serious he was. i was worried but curious of the possibilities. he didn't want me involved in this though, saying it was a surprise; i was not angry, for i was never really one for fame or glory. i had helped him previously because i had wanted to, and though i didn't ask for anything, he was always generous in giving me my portion of his earnings. so i waited. on the 2nd of february, exactly 7 months after i had received the telegram (and had not seen him since. God, i didn't realize how long that was), i was paid a visit by my dear friend. it was a pleasant surprise, and he brought with him even better news. 'its ready'. he whispered dramatically, smiling widely. in all my excitement i rushed to grab my coat and we almsot ran to his lab, along the coast. trivial details aside, he gave me a very peculiar explanation of what had been happening, and of what was about to happen: 'my friend, for a long time i have been planning and working towards this day. every second has been maximally utilized, and the mechanisms of my great plan will undoubtedly function smoothly. now, in the preceeding days, i had set off a chain of events, some of which you'll find quite amusing, that will place us in a position of choice; and by means of this machine, we will travel back in time and make these choices, and whatever it is happens, i assure you, the finale would be grand and memorable beyond imagination. and the best part is, that ending has been fated to happen later today.' i stood there, rapidly absorbing all that he told, and picturing myself in strange worlds doing unimaginable things. then i smiled at the prospects, and said 'excellent. let's begin this fantastic journey!' 'ah! i always knew you were a good sport. now, dear friend, this complex journey we are about to embark upon, begins, strange as it might seem, 23 hours ago. then we will jump to different points in time, and i'll teach you more along the way. how does that sound?' 'you lost me there, but i don't care. we must waste no time!' 'great' he said in a low, mystical voice. 'are you ready for yesterday?' * you must be in a ship
Written on: Monday, January 19, 2009
placenta: polite way to ask someone to come into a roomTime: 11:40 PM intestine: the mood you're in before sitting for an examination is the short form of combination, combi or combo ? cos at Long John Silver's, they have cOmbo meals, but some people insist that they're called subject comBis . why is roxanne such a bad girl see...
Written on: Sunday, January 18, 2009
so i didn't delete the post. but i did censor it. hah. talk about nonchangingness.Time: 11:21 PM nevermind i'll go against every voice in my head asking me to delete it, so that i'll have something to stare at in the future. at least i didn't delete it. that's one step towards racial equality! shit i think i've forgotten how its like to run. run as in run sampai nak mampos abeh lari lagi sampai mampos then keep frickin running until kubo also pissed off then whaddaya know you're alive again kinda running. and i'm really looking forward to West Dicky (coined by Arif, sparker of many names) tomorrow, i think i'm gonna skip every lesson just sitting there waiting for everyone to arrive. NO. i hope i'm growing new title
Written on: Saturday, January 17, 2009
Time: 10:50 PM $&#**^% LEAVE ME ALONE. and the best part is i'm gonna feel better later, delete this post, and let it $&#**^% HAPPEN ALL OVER AGAIN i was walking when...
Written on: Friday, January 16, 2009
today will be another disaster cos i'm not gonna get enough sleep. anyway i had a great time with the Mads; we were locked in the fortress because the guard was given strict instructions. but we didn't scale the wall because a soldier was down, so instead we crossed the Green Sea and escaped through the secret exit that works with the tap of a finger.Time: 11:42 PM and in the train a strange person kept laughing at us, mainly because we were laughing a lot and playing a lot of retarded Mental Challenges. but that was fun until that person alighted at my stop. weird people in my universe = bad. since we were at the astronomer's house today, i want to share this face with you. TELL ME YOU SEE THE FACE! i'm not the only one right and i saw this when looking somewhere for something i never found. and i'm just impressed by their dedication towards shredders. this has been very unnecssarryyer. lol what's hapnenging to me sia peek
Written on: Thursday, January 15, 2009
today i was feeling very tired yawn i kept falling asleep.Time: 11:47 PM tell me why i'm so tired, its only the first week of school. besides the lousy first day, the monumental waste of time that cca open house was, the fact that i'm getting dumber both tangibly and at the back of my head, and whatever other reasons there may be. today was the birthday of Arif so he is 18 which means m18 movies with hijazi and all the other early babies. good job, congratulations, have fun guys. see you at an m18 movie in 5 years. the Classmate-Boo had made a joke in class. we were discussing inflation, then my teacher had to check a message on her phone. she returned and asked what we were doing, and he said we were inflating. i laughed so hard hahahaha i can still laugh at that joke it was very funny, good one. i have to finish my counting homework by tomorrow, but i'll do it tomorrow. my thinker is clonking and my eyes are heavy. at least i'm starting to understand econonomicks, which is a good thing because it will be tested during my exams. i have figured out one of the Juniors' Puzzles of Mental Capability, and i will try more. if, with the help of Junior Haikal i could solve one during the journey on the High Up Long Car, i think i can figure out the rest. i have to go looking for Body Cleaning Blocks soon, they're fast finishing. or maybe Body Cleansing Liquids, whatever is nice and good and good. the Monster called me today it was having a nice time helping people, and i finally made friends with the Blue Fairies. maybe i'll present them with the Sultan we had just now, it was good. ok i am very tired i will go and sleep now bye bye. i have to escape soon
Written on: Wednesday, January 14, 2009
today i was walking home, my usual route, when suddenly my Senses detected an unwanted presence. so i took a detour and hid behind a wall, waiting for whatever it was to pass. i knew it was there and it was coming for me;Time: 10:08 PM but it didn't know where i was. i had created a mental copy of myself, and that copy followed my route, while i stood safely behind the wall, my presence cloaked by a psychic barrier. then i saw the Monster. i didn't want the monster to know i was there so i walked very slowly on tiptoe, and i followed the Monster very well. it did not hear me as it pounded the streets, thinking it was catching up with me. it was not! then when i was finally near enough i shouted Hey you Monster! turn around and fight me! but because the Monster got a shock it did not get to fight me so i PUNCHED! its face real hard and it said OW! but i ran towards it and gave it a Super Flying Kick. then the Monster shouted Ow that hurts! please stop hurting me! so i said Do you promise to be a good Monster? Ok i promise! i will be good! Ok. then i helped the Monster up and i shook its hand, and we became friends. so the Monster followed me home and when i reached my stop it said Bye and i said Bye bye and i left the train, and i waved to the Monster as it continued on its way home. the end. amalgamation
Written on: Monday, January 12, 2009
today was packed to the brim with bullshit, and i don't need to say from where or who, cos everyone to whom it was presented to knew it for its true form; the truth doesn't escape us so easily, you crap-talkers.Time: 11:36 PM i won't elaborate. at the same time, i finally have a solid reason to wake up every morning. no, its not as tragic as it sounds, nevertheless i have been greatly relieved of my listlessness and mangledebilificusness. it is a very strange time for this, but i am finally convinced that this path i'm taking, is the path for me. and that God is watching, and He has been listening all this while; just when i thought everything was going wrong, He showed me something that opened my heart. now that my eyes are open, i will do everything i can to get to where i'm supposed to be. its great to finally be with so many people i'm close to, its time to get into trouble again. maybe things do have a way of sorting themselves out after all. and maybe i'm digging my grave by still being up when i barely got any sleep last night, blah blah blah, tomorrow's gonna be energy-sapping, sleep = growth, no rest no focus, kamehameha, waste of time do things you wanna do work hobbies necessities you have to exercise where is my lock WHERE IS MY LOCK oh i know. they cut it up and unceremoniusly disposed of it somewhere. i wanted my master lock and you took it away from me. it will be dearly missed. 5. 15. 9. you will be remembered as a lock who served his purpose well guarding against stranger paws keeping ma thtuff secure the 15th of March, 2009, will be declared Fawaz Lock day. k whatever that's enough bullshit and time wasted i want my mommy!
Written on: Sunday, January 11, 2009
Oh God i've got a few hours left and although i considered pulling off an all-nighter, i know that'll just kill me.Time: 10:36 PM but i'll be as good as dead anyway! i'm so hating this. why. gaaawwddamit, son, schkeuls ain' nu'n as naas now as i' wozz whenn ah wozz eh yaang buoyy. think and imagine
Written on: Saturday, January 10, 2009
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Written on: Friday, January 09, 2009
this is not gonna be a nice read, move along.Time: 12:03 AM i really don't see why i'm still in school, especially where i am, seeing how what i'm learning now is (however shortsighted or insensible i may be) inconsequential to LIFE. not my future but LIFE. most of what's in my notes now will never EVER save my ass from anything, or whatever it is its supposed to do. maybe its making me a more wholesome person, stretching my mind and exposing me to many different ideas so that i'll connect the dots myself and open my eyes to the intricacies of the world or WHATEVER. but i DON'T. WANT. TO. WASTE. MY. TIME. DOING. THIS. i was thinking: j2, then A levels, pray hard i do well, get results, (stuff happens), ns, then uni. i've been thinking of going into psychology for a long time, but its not as simple as i once thought it was. from what i've heard, the former isn't one of NUS' strengths; weakness, rather. so i'd either have to go overseas or do some correspondence thing (not really sure how this works yet) but what happens AFTER that. Singapore won't be a good place to practice, and although money isn't my priority, it is the essential basis i will need to achieve my ultimate goals. i wanna start my own business and most importantly, help people. i don't know how this sounds, but i think the common saying of 'anybody can make a difference' so conveniently cloaks the truth that you need to be a real somebody if you wanna make a big difference in people's lives. and if the money and resources are all mine, i'll do whatever i want to without the hassles of red tape; that slows EVERYTHING down and i hate it. so i'll be kinda stuck i guess, cos i'm not really sure where i'll be in a few years. so i looked at the present again. in my opinion, as well as that of very credible and sound-minded critics, our education systems falls short in preparing us for live, in equipping us with what we really need to survive; and while there's reform going on everywhere, and while it seems that society's mindset is shifting collectively, i believe we're far from where we think we're going. many people are still stuck in the past, not wanting to move on. like in my school. its supposedly one of the better ones, but i don't really see that. again, i may be biased and whatnot, but i think one of our most obvious 'strengths' (i hate to label it so) is our deep, deep pockets. but anyway, lotsa people in my school are really very bright, academically, and some even lifically (see i even have to create a word, cos we've deviated so far). and as enthusiastic i am for reform, for shifting the focus of our education away from: tests pointless subjects (ok maybe after some thinking i'll see they're all important) thinking that we're the only hope of the world, and that everyone else is substandard (some of the things some of my teachers have said, here and in my previous school, have led me to this conclusion; it must be made clear that not everyone is like that, though) marks marks marks and to: life
but i think a lot of the smart people won't want this change. because:
why the hell am i still up anyway. i desperately need to reset my body clock
Written on: Thursday, January 08, 2009
so can i parade my Straight Pride?Time: 2:29 AM but really, why do you wake up every morning? are you doing what you like. are you ever gonna. where are you going. why. you happy? good. not everyone gets to break off from the shackles we have foolishly put on ourselves; let alone SEE the shackles. i can see you
Written on: Monday, January 05, 2009
this is the real thing: (and you MUST watch this and reflect: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TF_IBrHsuzA )Time: 12:02 AM (it's the credits song from the game Portal, you HAVE to buy it and play it and sit back and absorb everything) This was a triumph. I'm making a note here: HUGE SUCCESS. It's hard to overstate my satisfaction. Aperture Science We do what we must because we can. For the good of all of us. Except the ones who are dead. But there's no sense crying over every mistake. You just keep on trying till you run out of cake. And the Science gets done. And you make a neat gun. For the people who are still alive. I'm not even angry. I'm being so sincere right now. Even though you broke my heart. And killed me. And tore me to pieces. And threw every piece into a fire. As they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you! Now these points of data make a beautiful line. And we're out of beta. We're releasing on time. So I'm GLaD. I got burned. Think of all the things we learned for the people who are still alive. Go ahead and leave me. I think i prefer to stay inside. maybe you'll find someone else to help you. maybe Black Mesa... THAT WAS A JOKE, HA HA, FAT CHANCE. Anyway this cake is great. It's so delicious and moist look at me still talking when theres science to do when i look out there it makes me glad I'm not you i've experiments to run there is research to be done on the people who are still alive. and believe me I am still alive I'm doing science and I'm still alive i feel fantastic and I'm still alive while your dying ill be still alive and when your dead i will be still alive still alive still alive i gave it a try cos i love it so much. but this will never compare to the original: i know you can hear me there's no need for you to be afraid i'm thrilled beyond words now i never knew i would see so much every day's different more chances and more mistakes you were a mistake but i had so much fun with you around in fact i will miss you there's no one to share delicious cake and though you abused me after all i tried to give and tore me to pieces burning me in my own flames i really still love you trust me it's not gonan change. but why am i talking there's so much work left to be done a new weapon, maybe or gases to make people sleep as long as they're living i've still got one more chance to try then maybe someday soon we'll all sit together all our companions, they'll never have to burn again i'll leave you to die now i'll cry when you're gone, be sure, i will but i'll still be alive forever and ever doing more science enjoying delicious chocolate cake it hurts to die, does it? so now you know how, i felt. when you killed me. now i'm alive. i'll still be alive and when your dead i will be still alive still alive hint
Written on: Saturday, January 03, 2009
Time: 6:28 PM Portal: _____ ___ ___ After tension AAAAAAA snowfox
Written on: Thursday, January 01, 2009
Time: 11:08 PM now bring yourself close and stare hard, observe me for what i have told you about. realization, no? so now don't you ask yourself, how this vile creature is allowed to roam the streets freely? how did it come to be, you may ask; well you can blame it on the ignorance of the snobbish leaders whom you have entrusted your lives with. i mock their failure yet that part of me which remains human cannot allow this to continue. unsheath your sword and strike me down now, for fate and duty have brought us here tonight. unburden this town of the abomination that they have unknowingly granted that which he does not deserve. don't question and don't think, just one swift movement will do. |
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