moved entries persons timewarp |
therealshard
say: fawaz as complete as it gets
please refrain from using
. credits
Icon: LJ/sixthmile |
moved
|
excuse me, are you a skaters?
Written on: Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I was thinking, about thinking; thinking of why you do things. For starters, you might wanna prove yourself or something, to someone; that someone could be yourself, or a third party.Time: 12:28 AM I figured its pointless to have to prove yourself to others if there are no serious consequences attached (like if you want a job or something then don't be a dick about it lah duh) because it means, maybe, that you need someone's approval before you consider what you've done, worthwhile. If you fail to impress that person, then you may label yourself a failure; all that person is watch you try and fail (he'll probably sneak out the back and laugh his ass off before returning with a straight face). Then could you do something just so you prove to yourself you're capable of doing it? I mean, really? Do you have to tell yourself what you can do? Why is it that, in our quest to find answers to life and our world, we do not even know ourselves. Its like operating a mining drill you've never seen before, you can't figure it out yet you're supposed to use it to obtain something valuable. What then do you do things for. The sake of it? Do you have a long term goal, and how do you keep to it. How do you wake up everyday and do the things you do, with only the reassuring thought that all this will, someday, form the stepping stones for you to reach the peak in your life: your greater purpose, the penultimate reason for your being. Even after brushing aside the stickiness of reality, the situation isn't very much easier digested. For me, at least. I for one cannot align myself to this life that many live; I wake up everyday unquestioning, thankful, yes, that with God's grace I am blessed with another day, yet I cannot soon wonder what my day will build to. Is this then a question of faith? Is it supposed to be this way; we do whatever's been imposed, or likewise, with unquestioning commitment, knowing that our path has been laid out. Or is this a sign that I must make a conscious decision and choice for my future, and act on it now. How then do I get out of the 'system'. I may well be wrong, but I'm convinced that we've all been ensnared, against our will, in a system crafted by those who are no longer in it, who may have taken a different path, but are ultimately in control; in control over our lives. They decide what we have to do, present us with the illusion of choice and edge us forward whenever necessary. I find that even though the option of leaving is there, looming in the distance, dropping out now could make things so much more troublesome than they already are. Its like procrastinating; you're stuck in your zone of comfort, turning away from responsibility that lurks somewhere. You could, of course, force yourself out of this blissful state and face your duties. I know how hard it can be to get out. Or, you could stay on Cloud 9 and waste the time away, till your ever-pressing duties scream so loud at you that they've got to be on life support; until, finally, they are written off. Yes, like debts. Wait long enough and everything will just disappear. I bet it can happen like that and though I find the idea of shrugging off responsibilities repulsive, I can't help but wonder how far we can slack off. Whatever, life's a game shut up stop whining and play it but don't forget to have fun. What was that all about? |
moved
|
persons
|
timewarp
OR
|