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Written on: Thursday, September 17, 2009
This will be a shorty of sorts before I get back to econs. Lovely lovely econs, its starting to make sense, I just hope my sense equals normal sense. AND that I can remember everything and not suddenly notice the cramp in my neck and then get carried away with feeling bored cos I have to sit down for SO GODDAMN LONGGGG!!!!Time: 11:10 PM EXAM DEI! NOT TORTURE! SO WHY! WHYYY!!! WWWWWHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In other news. I was supposed to wake up at eightish on Wednesday to go and study at the library while all the chemists chemistized and chasticized and characterized (so I heard it was a hard paper, but nevermind just shut up and move along, yall to smart for this shit! And anyway who asked you to take chem huh huh huh. Its fun being me, I'm gonna learn everything only after my A's, which is soooo much easier on my lifeforce). But! As always something has to happen and this time, I overslept not once but a few times, before finally waking up at 4 pm, rushed to catch Zuhur, then later Asar. But what followed next wasn't work! Nay, my mind was too distracted by the musings of some brilliant minds on the web, and it soon led me on a journey towards the discovery of many different truths. That journey is incomplete as I had to sever it before it grew too deep with roots, for I had a higher calling. And that calling was fizz. And it came only late at night when, yes, I was alone once more. Everyone had retired, Mishari Rashid had stopt his recitation, and it was just me and the night. So I studied and I studied, I think I enjoyed myself, maybe too much, and couldn't stop. Partly because I felt I had to make up for the lost time. Stupid, I know. Cos I only finished at 4, and though I should sleep in the hall so my mom can kick me when it was time for sahur. BUT. My dad had apparently fallen asleep on the sofa and I had trouble falling asleep cos of his snoring. Not that it disturbed me, I just felt like laughing. Ehh I'm a very easily amused person lah what to do. In the end I must have dozed off cos an hour later the lights were on and my mom was calling me up. As I tried to sit up I struggled to divide 2kd over my plate, and stared hard to figure out the denominator. The semiconductors were somewhere on the table so I had to wake up to A naught. And here I am, hours since that hour, without a wink of sleep in between. How DO I manage to do all sorts of shit, I so love myself hahahhaa. Myself! Talking about myself! I was very lucky to get a table on the second floor of the library, right beside the big ass bright windows, all to myself! Just me! It was damn bright there (seriously the third floor is so much dimmer once you've experienced the glorious big ass window) and I was finally left all alone. I can't tell you how thrilled I was. It was the best time of my life, I was so productive I might have even been reproductive. Ok NO that was SO wrong, so out of place. Sowie. EH WHAT SOWIE SOWIE ITS SORRY. SORRY WITH AN AARRRRRR. I was super at peace, except when the idiots in front of me got carried away with their blabber. But it wasn't annoying enough for me to hurt them, and besides, I was telling myself that I will be a nice person. Don't malukan orang and be nice all the way, every way, all the wayyy. But somehow every time someone came to my table they had to ask me why I was alone. Hoi. Solitude. I'm an extroverted solitaire. Not that I hate yall, I love all my friends I really do, but I just prefer to go alone. I did so much work and had enough time to stare out the window at the Bosch building, and explore a few interesting thoughts, so I have this to share: (Its incomplete and very debatable, but no time for that today) REASONS YOU SHOULD BE ALONE, LIVE ALONE, DO THINGS ALONE: - You only have yourself to rely on. The blame is yours, so are the expectations and responsibilities - You don't tread into others' space and no one gets into yours - No need to change something for someone else - You're not committed to anyone, which makes you the best person to seek help from. People don't have to consider politics or shit when they want to talk to you. You will help, and ask for it when you need it. - You can care without the burden of a relationship or emotional responsibility - You can be sincere - No being held down by others, nor pulling people where they don't want to go - People are difficult to be around sometimes, it gets tiring - Never forced to share. You learn to do it wholeheartedly, provided you have the discipline and sense to do so - You have al the time for yourself and prayer. People tend to forget God because of other people That said, people should not behave like others don't exist. Smile at people, say nice things, prevent that stranger from falling when the train comes to a sudden halt, even if that person was trying to act cool. Be nice to everyone and everything, and remember that He is always watching you. Which brings me to Ramadhan again. Subhanallah, Ramadhan is such a blessed month. But many people are not seeing this, and I want you to think about that. I happened to watch a clip on Nickelodeon: How to survive Ramadhan. First reaction, what?! Then, The narrator started telling us how we can get over the hunger pangs. Sleep through the afternoon and wake just when its time to break fast! Problem solved! Final reaction, WHAT?! My dear non-Muslim friends, I regrettably inform you that you have the wrong impression of Ramadhan. We do not starve ourselves. We remember the plight of those who do not have like we do, and we cleanse ourselves and dedicate heart and soul to worshiping Allah, to get closer to him. Don't go away with the impression that Muslims are suffering because of Ramadhan. Verily those who say so have sadly forgotten the purpose of their fast. So please, refrain from commenting on something which you do not have a full understanding of. Yes, I'm very touched by your involvement in our holy month: radio stations announce the time for break fast, and people know what is going on. This is all very good, and is a desirable thing. After all, peaceful coexistence is the way to go. But then, limit your interpretations and comments, for they may have dangerous consequences. Do this for your sake. I just thought, from my experience, a lot of people don't comment so much about how the Hindus carry their Kavadis. To me, that is something only which they will understand, for it is their obligation. As an outsider, I will only observe, understand what I can, and accept them for who they are. I go no further than that. Alas, the fault also lies in us Muslims! My brothers and sisters (chey macam ustaz ni), it is YOU who must not send the wrong message of fasting. Do not make excuses for yourselves because you are lazy. If you don't know enough about something, find out, for that is what Allah asks of his worshipers. It is you who complain of hunger and you who do not see the specialty of Ramadhan, that has caused our non-Muslim friends to get the wrong idea. And those who are not, are then easily influenced by the wrong ideas. Think! Don't just whine and complain when things don't go in your favour, when people start making fun of Islam... Then later go back to your state of insufficient knowledge, and of not doing the right things when you have to. If you stagnate, don't expect everyone to fall back and wait for you. This applies to everyone, even all my dear friends from planet j'v'ah. And yes, I haven't forgotten about the transmittent upgrade I promised you. And since I'm still typing, I wanna talk a bit about the whole strong person thing, you know who you are heh. Its not that I think I have to be strong all the time, or that I shouldn't disturb people with my problems. I don't put up and act, and I show my weaknesses, maybe people just don't notice. And I will not share my 'problems' with my friends, because, really, what good advice can a fellow adolescent give. All of you have your own problems, not all solved, and your 'maybe this maybe that' advice will not help. I just like being alone, and I'm in control of this. You must all accept that I'm not like everyone else hahahha. THINK! When was the last time you met someone like me. Soooo, don't measure me by the common human standard. I am detached from that, I am very different, I'm so loving it, please leave me alone. Somehow I think I still didn't get or address your point but nevermind, I need to talk about more important things now. I NEED A NEW CONSOLE! It pains me that my beloved PS2 is coughing and dying, I love it with all my heart, I'll never throw it away... I think. I need a new console, but PS3 or XBOX360? A huge part of me is leaning toward the latter. You get to play Little Big World and some Ninja Gaiden shit and dunno what, that's enough of a reason for me. STILLLL, this is all excitement to be contained till after the biggies, and I will do that starting now. If you somehow read till here in one sitting, you seriously have nothing better to do. I feel so sorry for you, yet that's the extent of my emotional reaction. If you're a student then this is for you: YOU'RE SMART YOU'RE SMARTER THAN YOU THINK YOU ARE THINK LIKE A GENIUS AND YOU'LL FIND THAT YOU CAN BE ONE STUDY YOUR ASS OFF BECAUSE YOU WANT TO BECAUSE YOU CAN YOU'RE ALL CAPABLE OF ACHIEVING WHATEVER GRADES YOU WANT SO DO IT, DAMMIT OK I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF INSPIRATIONAL TALK I'M GETTING NAUSEOUS. therealshard wants you to be safe, stay sharp and get smartER Hello, Would you like a piece of me, I'm high in protein Labels: advice, famous words, no ligaments, sleeping patterns, thoughts |
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