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Written on: Monday, October 26, 2009
I think, my world would be just fine if there were no people and mirrors to look at me. No one to tell me what they want me to hear, nor unwittingly reveal what they think. I thought about it again and again, and I realize I may not be able to prove anything to anyone regarding my skeelz as a parent, cos I would really want to live by myself.Time: 2:24 AM But that can get really scary especially with all the ghosts and stuff but I'll work something out later. I'm a very happy person feeling very sad now, and nothing in the world can cheer me up (I think? But I'm not as sad as ten minutes ago, so... how ah) because the worst part is what I'm sad about is true, very true, undeniably unfalse and unlyishly notfake. I like my words they keep me company on lonely nights when everyone's asleep and I'm supposed to try to get some work done hahahahha I amuse myself. So now I've decided that at any point in time I'm going to do whatever it is that I want, and it must be good, because I can't afford to live my life for anyone else. A lot of people should know by now that I really can't can't can't give two shits about A's, because if I could have everything my way, I wouldn't be here. Its possible, don't tell me its not, I don't have to live your life because that's all you've done so far. AND the best part is I DON'T have to prove anything to anyone. BUT I've also decided that this is one of the last chances I have to prove to my parents that I'm not such a, uhh, dumbass. I've said before I want them to have solid evidence that I'm a GOOBOI! or a smart person whatever, SOOOOOOO I gotta try and get my straight A's. I'm gonna study as hard as I can without killing myself, without compromising life and remaining sane. I've decided its not worth ANYTHING to DIE for one exam. I'm not everyone else remember. SOOOOOOO My strategy is work hard, pray hard, go in, do the paper, get out, continue with life, repeat till end of As. Then I'll go on to do great things (InsyaAllah) though I must say I'm thinking twice about ruling the world. For now, my minimum goal is to give my family a comfortable life, I want my parents to be able to retire as early as they like and live off my income, and I want my brothers to have whatever money they need to do whatever they want to because they're brilliant people and I'd be more than happy to sacrifice my chakra to propel them to greater heights. You know if you look at Newton's Laws... k forget it. I was told to do something so people won't laugh at me in the future. Haha. Hahahahhahahaha. I mean come ON, really? If I do, then I shouldn't stop there, now, should I. There's so much to laugh about, why even start. So I try to get back to my 'I don't give a shit' mode where everything's cool. But I cannot stop thinking about everything going on around me, and it seems this world is becoming more of a living hell. Its sad, the things going on around us, but you must be happy. Becauuuseeeee there are forces greater than we can imagine that help the good, and every good deed goes a long way. Keep doing what's right and standing up for justice, we will make a difference, fo' sho'. It's late, I should sleep, yall take care and do yourselves proud. Hello, Bye Labels: thoughts |
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